The air around me still feels like a cage

FOR Daily Prompt: Can’t Drive 55

You may not be boundd physically but mentally and emotionally you are chained. You can be caught in memories, emotions, struggles or past life events. Each thing hold you back from the person you have the potential to become. It keeps you pinned down to your past and prevents you from moving forward. I can not imply that I know your life story, but I can say I know the feeling of being caged. I am at the moment feel trapped by emotions, memories and the fear of moving forward and letting go.

The future of those who feel trapped by something seems to be so distant it seems impossible to reach. We feel as if we are not able to escape or let go of what hurts us. If it is a person that makes you feel trapped, chances are they are very dear to you and you feel as if they know you better than anyone else. A person like that may be just what you need to stop feeling changed. ‘How could someone who hurts me make things better?’ you ask, it’s rather simple. That person knows you better than you know yourself and they want to help you. Imagine it from this perspective  they see you chained and bound to your past but they do not realize it is them that is keeping you there. They are trying to help you overcome it. When they are blinded of the situation it makes you a stronger person because they encourage you to overcome many obstacles at once instead of just one problem.

I have learnt from many past experiences that being held back does not lead you anywhere. It is quite obvious and a very realistic expectation. I am currently facing the struggle of feeling trapped but I am allowing myself to experience things that he who made me a victim would not want me to do. I rebel against the one who I love the most and the one who knows me better than I know myself. I can not encourage it enough that you have to allow yourself to move forward. Moving forward is scary and can mean a lot of pain, but it will be okay. It’s time to let go of everything that causes you pain. No one can help you if you refuse to help yourself.

The song that these lyrics came from is Snuff by Slipknot. I feel exactly the way the song describes. I only wish that they weren’t my friend that way I could hurt them in the end.

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Have you ever relied on someone to make your life decisions? If so, then you surely know the feelings that follow the action. Who ever you put your faith and trust in becomes your perfect drug. When you rely on someone too much, you suddenly start to need them on a daily basis. They become your addiction, you need them and you need to have them by your side 24/7. Suddenly, one day you wake up and start to realize you truly have an addiction to a person. You don’t believe it and you just brush off the thought but the more the day progresses the more you think about it. It’s starting to make more and more sense. An addiction is an addiction no matter to who or what it is. This person is manipulating you by your own hand. When they are gone you feel hopeless and empty. When it reaches that stage you should start finding a hobby or activity. If you like to read books, perhaps you should try writing a novel, biographies, essays. If you like music, try writing songs about how you’re feeling, learn a musical instrument like guitar or piano. The reason you need to do that is to replace a bad habit with a good or better one. If you are going through a situation and realize you need them, pause and go do one of those activities until the feeling of needing them passes. You have to be positive that you don’t need them to make decisions and you don’t need them to live your own life. You also have to see that you are placing a large burden on their back, you expect them to put their world on hold for you. Friends will always, always, always be there for you but they don’t want to have to feel like they are in charge of two different lives. The points I’ve made are important but the most important is to never ever bring yourself down. You made a mistake, don’t hate yourself over it. Like every other human being in the world you makes mistakes. Some may be hard to fix or even impossible but learn from things you’ve done wrong. Let it go and move on. I believe we all have the strength to remember our faults yet still be capable of moving forward. Feel the need to grow and be, in order to life a life full of promises. Love yourself and those around you,