The air around me still feels like a cage

FOR Daily Prompt: Can’t Drive 55

You may not be boundd physically but mentally and emotionally you are chained. You can be caught in memories, emotions, struggles or past life events. Each thing hold you back from the person you have the potential to become. It keeps you pinned down to your past and prevents you from moving forward. I can not imply that I know your life story, but I can say I know the feeling of being caged. I am at the moment feel trapped by emotions, memories and the fear of moving forward and letting go.

The future of those who feel trapped by something seems to be so distant it seems impossible to reach. We feel as if we are not able to escape or let go of what hurts us. If it is a person that makes you feel trapped, chances are they are very dear to you and you feel as if they know you better than anyone else. A person like that may be just what you need to stop feeling changed. ‘How could someone who hurts me make things better?’ you ask, it’s rather simple. That person knows you better than you know yourself and they want to help you. Imagine it from this perspective  they see you chained and bound to your past but they do not realize it is them that is keeping you there. They are trying to help you overcome it. When they are blinded of the situation it makes you a stronger person because they encourage you to overcome many obstacles at once instead of just one problem.

I have learnt from many past experiences that being held back does not lead you anywhere. It is quite obvious and a very realistic expectation. I am currently facing the struggle of feeling trapped but I am allowing myself to experience things that he who made me a victim would not want me to do. I rebel against the one who I love the most and the one who knows me better than I know myself. I can not encourage it enough that you have to allow yourself to move forward. Moving forward is scary and can mean a lot of pain, but it will be okay. It’s time to let go of everything that causes you pain. No one can help you if you refuse to help yourself.

The song that these lyrics came from is Snuff by Slipknot. I feel exactly the way the song describes. I only wish that they weren’t my friend that way I could hurt them in the end.

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Time of dying by Three Days Grace

This song is very iconic and to me it means hurting while you are in love. Like Tupac said “Sometimes the person you would take a bullet for ends up being the one behind the gun”. They may not hurt you intentionally, they hurt to save you.

CHECK OUT THESE BANDS!!!

Here is a list of my favorite bands and artist and why you should check them out

  1. Avenged Sevenfold
    Want some heavy metal mixed with classic sound? Avenged Sevenfold is exactly what you need. They have been a band since 1999 and have tried various music styles, yet keep true to their heavy metal and hard rock base. For screamo check out their first two albums entitled ‘Sounding the Seventh Trumpet’ and ‘Waking the fallen’. If you prefer heavy metal check out ‘City of evil’, ‘Diamonds In the rough’ or ‘Nightmare’. If you aren’t into the harsh sound check out their self titled album. If you are an Iron Maiden, Black Sabbath fan check their newest Album Hail To The King, release August 27 2013.
  2. 3 Pill Morning
    This American rock band formed in 2004 has toured with Hollywood Undead, Escape The Fate and 12 stones. Their sound is similar to Three Days Grace, Billy Talent, Nickelback’s Dark horse album. 
  3. Halfway to Hollywood
    This Vancouver based Pop-Rock trio is definitely what you need to boost your spirits. Their sound has been compared Hedley, Marianas Trench and Faber Drive. After a little over a year they have sold 7000 digital songs and 500 copies of their EP and their fan base has reached a sizeable amount.

 

20 of my favorite pickup lines

  1. I wish I was cross-eyed, so I could see you twice
  2. If we hug a little tighter, our hearts will be a little closer.
  3. If my love for you was measured in bricks I could build a tower to the moon
  4. You drive me so crazy I might end up in Arkham City
  5. You can fall from the sky, you can fall from a tree but the best way to fall is in love with me
  6. Excuse me, but does this smell like chloroform to you?
  7. I noticed there was something missing in your bed(What?) ME!!!!
  8. I’ve got skittles in my mouth, wanna taste the rainbow
  9. Roses are red, violets, are blue, if you were a pokemon, I’d choose you
  10. My love for you is like diarrhea I just can’t hold it in!
  11. Kiss me if I’m wrong but dinosaurs still exist right?
  12. You stole my heart, so can I steal your last name?
  13. I’m no organ donor but I’d be happy to give you my heart.
  14. I want to be your tear drop, so I could be born in your eyes, live on your cheeks, and die on your lips.
  15. You’re like the lyrics to my favorite song, hard to forget and always on my mind.
  16. I lost my teddy bear. Can I sleep with you?
  17. You want to know what’s sexy? Read the first word again 😉
  18. Can I follow you home? Cause my parents always told me to follow my dreams.
  19. I wanna live in your socks so I can be with you every step of the way
  20. Hey c’mon now, I’m ugly, you’re ugly, it’s perfect.

15 of My favourite facts

1.The act of kissing releases oxytocin in the brain – A hormone that strengthens the emotional bond between 2 people.

2.Human fetuses react to loud rock music by kicking.

3.The word “batman” is used to refer to someone’s personal servant – So, Alfred Pennyworth is actually Batman’s batman.

4.Your dreams foreshadow events in which have yet to take place. Often times, your dreams may contain warnings of danger.

5.Falling in love for the first time triggers the part of the brain associated with fear.

6.The first time you get a cold sore, the virus that causes it lurks in your body for the rest of your life.

7.Those stars and colours you see when you rub your eyes are called phosphenes.

8.Game of Thrones is filmed in the same studio the Titanic was built in, not the movie but the actual RMS Titanic

9.Norman Reedus (Daryl from ‘The Walking Dead’) plays Judas in Lady Gaga’s “Judas” music video!

10.Musicphile – a person who is addicted to listening to music.

11.People tend to confess everything during late night text message conversations

12.Some psychologists state that sleeping naked can help boost a person’s confidence.

13.Individuals who swear a lot tend to have higher IQ’s, less likely to experience depression & are overall happier than those who don’t.

14.There is nothing complicated about an Aries man, what you see is what you get

15.Psychology claims that If two past lovers can remain just friends, its either they are still in love, or never were.

Struggle

I am back! I have been going through personal matters but they seemed to have all been resolved. I think we need to struggle in order to survive. We all struggle at some point or another, whether it be at work, in love, in friendships or simply in finding yourself. We live through these struggles and we come out on the other side of the tunnel a new person. There is one struggle we all experience at some point in our lives. For those of you who disagree, open your mind and really think about yourself. The struggle we all have is finding the positive in every situation. In every bad thing there is some good.

 

ImageYou were giving this life because you were strong enough to live it”

Emotional pain

I felt the urge to post something today because of the issues I’m currently dealing with. This is mostly just me ranting and complaining. I apologize for the negativity, beforehand. I am deeply in need of this though.

I didn’t know how much pain a person could feel emotionally until these past few days. Anger, hatred, vulgarity, sadness, confusion, hope, despair. It’s like everytime the one thing that I want to happen the most ends up happening and I mess everything up. Just to give you a little more insight, I am in a deep pile of trouble with s friend who will remain anonymous for his sake, we shall call him Ray. I’ve always liked Ray and he’s never liked me. We have our normal moments, but we also have the worst fights. The fighting makes me very self-conflicted. My emotional state starts to deteriorate. Tonight we were talking and I decided to be honest with him, because I needed to get it off my chest because it was hurting me. Ray sent me a voicemail back in June, just telling me I was gonna be okay, because I was very upset. I saved the voicemail every week until I was sending it to my other phone and I accidentally dialed the 7 which deleted it. I asked him to do it again and he refused. That message that he left made me feel safe if I was scared, happy if I was sad and warm if I was lonely. It got me through a lot of things and now I’m feeling broken because I don’t have it anymore when I cry.

I don’t understand how God or whoever is in charge could do this. He loves us and has a plan, but how is having someone hurt us and making us cry almost every week part of our plan. I don’t know what I believe in but this has got to be a joke.

I am just so mentally drained and so unstable. I can’t sleep and I can’t think straight. I just feel so lost at the moment. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. Prayers don’t work, and neither does talking it out or even just talking to Someone. I just want this pain and suffering to end.

Ray, if you’re reading this…you know exactly who you are. Can you just stop it and listen to me? Let me say everything because if I don’t things will only get worse. I know its hurting you but it’s killing me. Just listen to everything I’m not saying. I hate the way you know exactly how to make me cry and yet you don’t want to see me hurt. Thanks for the heartache.

The heart is complex

The heart is a hollow muscle that pumps blood or so it says according to Wikipedia. I say it’s something more. It’s the base of our feelings of Love and Hate and our second sector that is needed for life. Not only does it pump blood throughout our bodies; it spreads a feeling throughout us. When we hear another persons heartbeat whilst hugging or resting our heads on their chest, we feel a bond or a connection of you will. Why do we feel this connection? It’s simple, as fetuses we hear our mother’s heartbeat and as infants the sound of a heartbeat gives us a sense of security. As we grow the sound of a heartbeat symbolizes security, love, safety, home and purity. When we fall in love and have an intimate moment where we here the heartbeat of the person we love we feel a connection. The sound of their heart makes us feel at home and safe.

When we are in love and the connection we tried or have made with that person breaks and we feel it on our hearts. A subtle pain in the chest, tightness of the throat and the feeling of heaviness on the chest. Sounds like a heart attack and sometimes we’d prefer s heart attack. Those feelings stay with you as long as you decide to keep them. When you let go of the person you let go of the bad, remember the best and you build a new connection.

I’m not sure where this is even going. I’m feeling heartbroken right now so if anyone knows a good remedy for that email me please. I’m also here to talk if you need me.