Inner voice

From fetus to death, one of the things we are taught is love. Love the people who make you smile, love the life you live, love everything and everything around you. When we grow to be 10 or older, we see things from a different perspective. We see the violence, hate, discrimination and terrible things. We discover that life isn’t always sunshine and rainbows. When we see these things we learn to make a decision between “right and wrong” or “good and bad”. I, personally, do not believe that there is a right or wrong decision. Because what I think is right, may be wrong in society. From that stand point I think it is safe to say that my inner vouce or inner self, is rather quite stubborn. Anyways, I wanted to address something, I feel most teenagers and some adults struggle with.

We all have an inner voice or inner self that only we know. Our inner self is the person we truly are. It expresses our true opinions, our values and our emotions. Have you ever been in a situation where perhaps a friend says “I like the band so-and-so!Don’t you just love them?” And naturally our response is “yeah”, but on the inside you are really just screaming and running around like a chicken with his head cut off because you really don’t like that band. That screaming and running is done but your inner self. Now maybe that’s never happened to you. Maybe I sound crazy, so if that’s what you’re thinking feel free to click off or continue reading if you are still with me.

Growing up I never felt like I had a voice or a say in my parents decisions or sometimes even in my own. If there was a family issue where my parents were arguing with other family members I would always feel as if I needed to send a quick email explaining that what was going on was hurting me too.

I’m not gonna tell you how to overcome thus stuff or what to do because I really don’t know myself. I will however let you know when I find out. I’m just here to let you know you aren’t alone and feel free to email me to tell me what’s going on if you are feeling the same way. Maybe we can find a solution together



inspirational music! :)

Lullaby by Nickelback

You’re Beautiful by Gregory Jackson

Warrior by Demi Lovato

I won’t back down by Johnny Cash 

Count on me by Default

Stop Crying Your Heart Out by Oasis

S.I.N.G. by My Chemical Romance

I walk beside you by Dream Theater

World of change

Marilyn Manson to blame for Columbine? Eminem blamed for murder of wife and kids? Society is blaming artists for crimes that happen daily all over the world. Elvis Presley has also been blamed for corrupting youth, as his nickname being “The Pelvis”. Communities worldwide are blaming musicians such as My Chemical Romance, Marilyn Manson, Ozzy Osbourne and others for the promotion of suicide. Murders and homicides occur on a daily basis, but is music really to blame. The person who commits the crime usually has an underlying mental health issue that has yet to be uncovered or has already been diagnosed. It is possible for the person to become influenced by the lyrics or the artists actions, but misinterpretation also plays a roll. Lyrics like “You’ll understand when I’m dead” and “Don’t give a f**k if I cut my arm bleeding, this is my last resort” can easily be understood as “if I kill myself everyone will know who I am” and “Suicide is the best choice”. In reality the song was made to help the musicians audience overcome suicidal thoughts, self-harm and other actions that could potentially harm themselves or others. Most of the time the image they try to portray is that the listener is not alone and that they know that perhaps their idol has felt what they are feeling. 


Now, onto a factor that is most common in the world celebrities; Sex, drugs and alcohol. Fame and fortune has a price and judging by many lifestyles actors and musicians share. Illegal narcotics like Marijuana, Cocaine and Heroin are some of the most used drugs in the world amongst many others.  Drugs create an effect of other worldly experiences. Many artists turn to drugs to escape the reality of being famous and having a lifestyle that is hard to keep private. It creates another world that they escape to whenever they feel. Eminem speaks openly about his drug addictions and rehab and has stated that drugs made him distant from friends and family. He has nearly no memory of that period in his life. Drugs are done but almost everyone the world of fame. Ozzy Osbourne’s “Demon Alcohol”, is from the POV of the alcohol. It depicts the truth about effects of alcohol. Teenagers and adults can take the lyrics in the songs and see what the artist did or is doing and can say “If he does it then I should too”. The idolization has gone to a more extreme level, it becomes an obsession.  The mirror their idols every action and try to look and be exactly like them. If the idol is caught drinking and doing drugs, they will go out and do it. They don’t care if they hurt a loved one or hurt themselves. In today’s day and age, sexuality is becoming more and more televised. The use of sexually explicit lyrics appears in most musical genres such as hard rock, Rap, R&B and pop. Marilyn Manson uses sexual imagery to convey a certain image of the lyrics. He explains in an interview anything you see in his videos is to convey an image or the way he wants you to see the song.

Long story short, musicians aren’t always the culprits in the corruption of youth. The opinions expressed in this post belong to myself and not to the users or creators of

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Where I got my information

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eminem interview:

Marilyn Manson interview:


Top 10 Drugs and their Effects


Take a line from a song that you love or connect with. Now forget the song, and turn that line into the title or inspiration for your post.

Have you ever relied on someone to make your life decisions? If so, then you surely know the feelings that follow the action. Who ever you put your faith and trust in becomes your perfect drug. When you rely on someone too much, you suddenly start to need them on a daily basis. They become your addiction, you need them and you need to have them by your side 24/7. Suddenly, one day you wake up and start to realize you truly have an addiction to a person. You don’t believe it and you just brush off the thought but the more the day progresses the more you think about it. It’s starting to make more and more sense. An addiction is an addiction no matter to who or what it is. This person is manipulating you by your own hand. When they are gone you feel hopeless and empty. When it reaches that stage you should start finding a hobby or activity. If you like to read books, perhaps you should try writing a novel, biographies, essays. If you like music, try writing songs about how you’re feeling, learn a musical instrument like guitar or piano. The reason you need to do that is to replace a bad habit with a good or better one. If you are going through a situation and realize you need them, pause and go do one of those activities until the feeling of needing them passes. You have to be positive that you don’t need them to make decisions and you don’t need them to live your own life. You also have to see that you are placing a large burden on their back, you expect them to put their world on hold for you. Friends will always, always, always be there for you but they don’t want to have to feel like they are in charge of two different lives. The points I’ve made are important but the most important is to never ever bring yourself down. You made a mistake, don’t hate yourself over it. Like every other human being in the world you makes mistakes. Some may be hard to fix or even impossible but learn from things you’ve done wrong. Let it go and move on. I believe we all have the strength to remember our faults yet still be capable of moving forward. Feel the need to grow and be, in order to life a life full of promises. Love yourself and those around you,